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your touch, my reverie

waking up disorientated  groggily made my way to meet you halfway only to take me back to yours to sleep again
you are never far away those touches and kisses became more how can i resist
sleeping in your arms wrapped up in each other these actions just have different meanings
shy but not too shy just exchanging more stories i took your smiles and kept them in my pocket
knowing and not knowing we simply just live on like singles solitary made us hungry for each other
i'm in this reverie if you are too take me spinning into this web we are weaving
we are crawling to the peak but right now, your touch, your kisses, your hold they are getting tighter. you, my favorite reverie.
-walking in a daze-

do we need words?

-tuesday awakens-

woke up early just to see you
kissed that newly-shaven face and lips to feel close ran my hands through the soft browns and held hands with content feels wrapping me in your arms and carrying me to your room
these little moments make me yearn 
do words always count? we don't speak much but when we meet it's ethereal
you teach me your language i bring you sweets we create bubbles you leave me breathless
with your back facing me but you'd still pull me close not a cuddle but a back hug very sneaky
we know we can't sleep with strangers in our beds
but that did not apply to us
novelty
calamity

the touch the silent communication do we need more words?
exchanging food photos cooking for you waiting on each other that intensity rolls inside
your simplicity that fights my complexity one word to explain my hundreds you don't ask and i don't explain when we do, we're at par with each other
and so the wait begins... with or without words in this twis…

peak

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inspired by Anne-Marie's Peak
what i used to think when i thought of you, that dalliance in September  -

wasn't i enough
did i ever meant anymore than a few fucks
i don't blame you for the love
that I lost you to her
it will take time and a lot of effort
but i was a fool
and i thought you were in love

no one could compare to you
i've beaten myself blue
i wish you could be stick to your words
instead of being hot and cold

did i breathe, did i?
did i flee, did i sleep or cheat, did i?
did i do something wrong?
did i hit the peak, did i?
did i freak, did i steal, did i?
no, i didn't do anything but feel

and now we get along
that is what we have to do
but i know every move
wrote my heart out for you
i have to stay invisble
and you have to too
it was the hope, we crumbled
when we once stood together

no one could compare to you
i didn't want to feel
i wish you were more real
instead of trying to look cool

did i breathe, did i?
did i flee, did i sleep or cheat, did i?

suitcase

it was so normal, just like any other couple - this song by Matthew Koma sort of just inspired me last night's events -

you looked like Sundays with me
sleeping behind me with your arm curled around me
like a band you held me tight to your chest

my darling he was childishly adorable
our identity was mostly physical but more
every now and then his noise inside my head replays

he said I remember liking you even more when you match my crazy
I remember feeling happy when I am with you doing what we both like
I remember missing you for all the times we spent together that were never enough
i'm packing every memory we made in a suitcase

kissing me in the morning before leaving for work
leaving me in a state of grogginess
wishing you didn't have to go so soon
now i'm on cloud eight with a capital C for content and confused

- longing

tell me what to do

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i got inspired by this new song  "Tell Me What To Do" from Shinee -


tell me what to do
things have changed from the beginning
tell me what to do
you look like you gave up on a lot
tell me what to do
when you call for me silently
tell me what to do

lovers without the strings
from win-win to the losing ends
we have not ended but it feels like it's over
tell me what to do

there is this line that can't be broken
in front of us

i thought of you everyday
in each different circumstance
i'm always there
when  you need me
i need you to tell me what to do

you don't say a word but you want me to know
you think about yourself all the time
the words you throw at me carelessly because you're already used to me
so tell me what to do

indifference to painful reality
emotions running wild between us
words that made me realize
i'm still a fool - because there is no us

i don't want to erase it
even if i can

i thought of you every time
thinking different ways to let …

something about you

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that poem inspired by Tayler Buono's something about you

i got my head outside the window
my heart scattered on your heart
only one dream to go
don't let it out, let it out
but we're caught in between
the days where we can't win
and now we're chasing the speed
to get what we need, what we need

it's something about you
holding on your hand
it's never enough
just something about you
dancing in the dark
kissing in public
nobody else does it the way you do
the way that I feel when you hold me
not sure what I'm getting into

there's something about you
just something about you

so pick me up at twilight
you locked your lips with mine
driving us to the edge
we keep driving on, drivin' on
we love through the dark
somehow losing that spark
leaving space in between
but still feeling the same
like we belong, we belong

it's something about you
holding me tight in your arms
never letting me go
just something about you
it's never enough
touching me ev…

another beautiful disaster

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one word
one look
and they were hooked

hit the bass
their lips taste
and time they did not waste

once
twice
thrice

the intensity that surrounds us
electrifying lust
created that blind trust

it was perfectly imperfect
no regrets
only facts

we matched
we are a set
that never bet

what a way to start
because when we're apart
it's as though we were in half

as we drift along
we were never alone
and that we have won

distance and time
we don't have to rhyme
because we are fine
and in a bind
- to each other.

so, mote it be.

-great calamities-








let me be

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..and i shall continue the lyrical (Charlie Brennan's Let Me Be) journey that is somehow in-sync with my current condition

you broke me once and then twice i must be a fool to even believe you thrice don't take a breath because i already know what's coming like a glutton for punishment i still need to hear it my heart doesn't know what it wants with you but my mind can't stop thinking about you
why i loved you anyway when i read it but somehow i know that i need it how did it happen anyways when it took me mere hours to drop you from the face of earth so if this is our goodbye then i won't need time  to be by myself for a while cause my heart doesn't want you, maybe but please just let me be and don't find me
i'm still learning who i am but i could learn from someone else  who respects me and not sneer at my interests i will continue to be myself and i will never ask you to change or for anything so if this is our goodbye then i will not look back a…

please don't say you love me

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it's not a poem, but my version of inspiration from the song...

summer fades, autumn comes
here we are, more similarities than differences
needing the pressure, needing the change
but, let's not give the game away yet

always an empty space with a photograph in place without a face
but with your presence and your craze
everything falls into place

just please don't say you love
because i can't say it back
doesn't mean my stomach won't feel butterflies when you look at me like that
don't worry if you could see where we are now
so please don't say you love me
because i can't say it back, maybe.

heavy words exchanged
too much pressure broke precious things
but how we feel is not unreal
so don't give the game away

as fools rushed in
and being one before
i have slowed down this time
thinking this could be more than what i'm looking for

so please don't say you love me
because i can't say it back yet
but don't give up on us
and let us co…

ILYSB - i like you so bad

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never felt this way in a long while -  butterflies and calmness meshed together

long story short - i met bliss lately
this song by LANY came into mind and started replaying after a long while
i won't say it's our song - but it's like an introductory one.
funny thing is, no matter how much he reads into me and how brief our acquaintance was
it's shotgun!

i'm supposed to be shouting and dancing in glee
but actually - it wasn't entirely all sunshine and rainbows
//you know those movies that would show you the whole transition about a man meeting a woman somewhere and then ended up together all in one day- be it a trauma or an uneventful setting but yes, the end result is feelings arise and the mutual understanding and feelings are result.//
that's exactly what transpired this little euphoria of mine for more than a week~ not to sound corny or cheesy to say week-sary but aye

being adventurous is one, but to be trusting of another? that's quite profound.
be…